Dear Tiffany Q. T. Nguyen,

LOVE

2012-02-06T21:24:00.000-08:00

Since it is February, I thought it would be appropriate to talk about love. For a while I thought love did not exist. But then I realized that it did exist . . . just not in me. I am not talking about loving friends and family. I am talking about intimate love. Sometimes I would catch myself fantasizing about being in a relationship with some really cute guy with a really cute personality. That

2012-01-07T00:59:00.001-08:00

To be honest, I feel like I have no best friend or very close friends at all. Just good friends and aquaintances.

My Mother's Husband

2012-01-02T04:20:00.000-08:00

Stress. I always have it. I am always stressing out. Not much from school. The only stress I get from school is things I put onto myself like procrastinating. Sometimes there are outside factors like friends and drama but that does not effect me much. I want to talk about the type of stress that makes you want to cry. The type that makes you want to pull on your hair and yell out, "WHY?! WHY ME?!

2011-12-24T17:54:00.001-08:00

Dear Daisey, I can be surrounded by the people I care and love but I still wish you were here. I knew I had you, I just never thought I would lose you. Sorry<3

Misinterpreted?

2011-12-21T03:57:00.000-08:00

Thank goodness he is okay! I think I misinterpreted him. I think he meant that if something were to happen to him, we will be looking down at me from heaven. I was up for hours scared that I had led him to do something bad . I am so relieved!

I am a bad person

2011-12-20T17:43:00.000-08:00

No, this is not an opinion, it is a fact. Let me back track to two nights ago. Or should I say way to early in the morning? Anyway, I was on Chatroulette because a certain person *cough*ANDY*cough* could not cam with me. I met a really sweet guy, Ouyang Bonvee [I think it is Bonwei but he told me to just say Bonvee]. He is from China. Through Simon and Martina, I know Korean guys show their

My fear .

2011-11-19T05:43:00.000-08:00

I need to step up my game. I need to let go of these teenage things like boys, party, fun etc. I need to start practicing techniques on singing, rapping, and dancing. And then I need to start getting better at these skills. Not master them though. So how good enough do I have to be? Darned companies being so picky. I need to start losing weight AND working out. I am skinny . . . and then I see

Trust NO ONE

2011-11-15T23:25:00.000-08:00

Not friends, not family. Blood runs thicker than water? Yeah right. What makes you think that family will stick with you more likely than friends? If anything, family is more obliged to stay with you BECAUSE they have known you since their or your birth. Yeah, I have trust issues. My problem is that I trust EVERYONE. Family, friend, stranger, whoever and whatever exists. My sister wants

2011-11-13T14:53:00.001-08:00

Here is a glimpse of my prom dress! I just got this corset today. A tad bit loose though but I do not know how to make it smaller since it has a steel frame. /:

Superiority Coplex

2011-11-09T22:13:00.000-08:00

My goodness. Ever since my parents have been gone, my siblings have had a superiority complex. They have drunk underaged. I have never told on them because really, what kind of sister would I be? Then I drink with my friends a couple of times and I am so over it but that is not enough for my siblings. My brother already tried to black mail me because he was really rude and I just stayed quiet

SIGH

2011-11-07T19:14:00.000-08:00

No matter how 'mature' I seem to be, I handle mature conversations immaturely. And then people start hiding things to 'protect' me. It has gotten to the point where my own best friend has to hide secrets from me. 아이고 T^T

Immaturity

2011-11-06T21:23:00.001-08:00

I think the time it takes for me to get over a guy measures my immaturity. I have the mindset of a seven year old. Sweet. |8

Interesting

2011-11-02T03:27:00.000-07:00

Hello Bien ! (: I know you are reading this . You are probably waiting for me to update my blog right now . But you do look really sleepy. I think you should go to sleep! Oh, and your body puts mine to shame ! ): Which reminds me, my mum left for Vietnam and my sister made her buy only salad and things that you can eat in a salad. 'Cause Nathalie wants to be less than 90 pounds so she is

I need to stop over thinking things . .

2011-10-23T04:23:00.000-07:00

So the other day I hung out with Lily and Hermes. Hermes was driving his best friend, Paulina, home. They were fooling around and I really saw their close relationship with each other. Like hell I was jealous. I wish I had someone like that. ): I guess Andy and I have our level of foolishness and stuff but he seems so secretive about his feelings that whenever we are together, all we can ever do

Canyon's Homecoming

2011-10-11T05:35:00.000-07:00

When you read this, please please please excuse my language. Also, to Alex Friedl, if you are reading this and you want to talk to me, go for it. But this is how I saw everything. IDK why I like this snippet of the photo but I do. Kay guise?? Ha ha Anyway . . . Homecoming itself was fun, but before and after homecoming sucked pig balls. First, Emily was driving everyone and it was totally my

FV's Homecoming

2011-10-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

So on October 1st, I went to Fountain Valley's homecoming. It was really nice seeing everyone. I felt bad because I did not really dance with my date, Aaron. Even though he did not seem comfortable dancing anyway. The venue was, without a doubt, pretty and the DJ was wayy better than Canyon's DJ. Afterwards I went to Denny's and caught up with Johnny. What I like about him is that we never

Fed up .

2011-10-03T01:32:00.000-07:00

Lately, I think I have been over thinking things too much that now I am fed up with everything. >.< So first, Lily wants to go to homecoming with my but she is not cooperating with me. I need her to pay and send me a copy of he school ID. I do not mind when she pays but I really need the school ID but it has been over two weeks and she still has not sent it to me. Then, something is totally up

FAIL

2011-09-27T22:20:00.000-07:00

So I auditioned for SBS's Sruvivial Audition. Obviously I failed. But I felt like this was a TRUE audition experience. I was number 193, there were 400+ people, and the audition ended around 4-5. Requirements? Show all your talents: singing, rapping, or dancing. It is preferred to choose two or more but not mandatory. I chose to do all three. Whoever heard my rapping claimed to have actually

Scared

2011-09-11T22:15:00.000-07:00

So yesterday, I auditioned to be in a contest for LA Korean Festival. I rapped to 'Ma Boy' and Jerrica sang. Results came in today and we did not make it. If we were not able to make it into this, I am scared that I am not going to pass the second round of SBS Survival Auditions. I really want this...I do not know what to do..

Scumbag

2011-08-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

He had me fooled. No, he had everyone fool. I cannot believe there are such people like him. That liar. That cheater. I hope he is out of our lives FOREVER. I can never forgive him. Not in a thousand years. What he did was low. Lower than low. Yeah, my sister has done bad things in the past, but she definitely did not deserve this! That pig. How dare he come barging into our lives, acting like

Hope

2011-08-13T02:45:00.000-07:00

I had a good day today. I hung out with Jerrica, Will, Misty, Alex, Joann, Gil, and I got to meet Gil's boyfriend. It was just a nice time hanging out with people. And we hung out at my house afterwards. I am always inviting people over but really I hate it when people come over 'cause the house has to be clean and when everyone leaves, there is always a big mess. I was really happy today. I

Curiosity killed the cat.

2011-08-12T06:03:00.000-07:00

I had to ask. I had to ask. I had to ask. It was either now, later, or never. Who knows. But I needed to know. I had to know. I just cannot believe it. Okay, let me back track to a few hours ago. I ask my mum if she would let me go to EPAA [Entertainment Performing Arts Academy] for winter break for two weeks IF I got a 5000$ scholarship. Which is their full scholarship. All she had to do was

My mind is all mixed up.

2011-08-10T04:37:00.000-07:00

For the past few years . . .well, how do I put this into words? Basically, whenever I speak, my words get jumbled up. It has been getting worst every year. At first I blamed it on my braces. Although I did not have this problem before, I just blamed it on the braces. My scapegoat I guess. But when I got my braces off, this problem still continued. Today, while speaking to Andy and Samy, the same

Back track

2011-08-05T05:03:00.000-07:00

I thought I was going to come back home from San Jose and just be an emotionally wreck. But I actually turned out to be really happy. Okay, well, not super duper giddy or whatever. But I have been happier than I was for the past few . . . months? I am not sure where all this bundle of joy came from but I want it to last~ The only thing bothering me right now is really trivial but . . . I NEED A

Untitled.

2011-07-31T04:05:00.000-07:00

I am really glad that I am going back home today. Back into my room where I can be alone. All alone.. I want to cry. Cry out. Cry for me. Cry for the world. Cry all my frustrations out. What has gotten into me all of a sudden? I do not know . . .

Nobody

2011-07-31T03:57:00.000-07:00

For some reason, I cannot let go of the past. It is hard for me to accept the fact that everyone is not who I thought they were. Well, that or that everyone changes. I confess, I used to look at myself with a brighter light than everyone else. When I moved, I thought everyone would be texting me, IMing me, facebook me, and hang out with me ALL THE TIME.I thought people would miss me to the

2011-07-10T22:27:00.001-07:00

It hurts knowing that your friend is fighting a battle alone and you can do nothing to help.

Wise man

2011-07-07T01:02:00.000-07:00

I hate it when people try to sound wise and I hate it when I try to sound wise. Like you are talking to a friend for advice and their tone suddenly changes when they try to put together words to try to sound wise. Like 'WTF NOOOOO, I want my friend back!' Ha ha . Well, that is not exactly what I think but my feeling changes with their tone. And for me, it is slightly different. I suck at

As positive I think I am . . .

2011-06-16T20:10:00.001-07:00

I keep beating myself down. HOW COME I CANNOT SING ? ! I Sound like a try -hard. Maybe my dad was right . . . I am a wannabe . . .

'Your parents do not know how to raise you'

2011-04-24T20:21:00.000-07:00

That is bull. I hate it when people drag another person's parents or family into the situation. Like, "oh your sister is a b****" or "your dad is a jerk". We may say bad things about our family, but as much as I hate to admit it, we all love our family unconditionally. And then the whole "your parents do not know how to raise you" thing. Why bring my parents into the situation? Okay, no one has

Birthdays

2011-04-24T04:18:00.000-07:00

Next topic in discussion. BIRTHDAYS. I love presents, but when it comes to my birthday, yeah, I still love presents, but I do not expect it. Why? I believe that your birth day is supposed to be a celebration of your birth. Appreciation for your life. You should not EXPECT a gift. You should expect LOVE, from the people YOU love. But not only on your birthday, everyday. Because everyday should

Why do we do the things we do?

2011-04-24T04:09:00.000-07:00

So today I went karaoke with Wei and Silvia. I only stayed for an hour and a half then I had to leave to go to church. It was 5 and church started at 6. I was really upset because not only was I going to be there an hour early, mass would have been 2 hours long [it turned out to be 3 hours long =3=; I was in church for 4 hours,] and I had to go to church again on Sunday. I already went to church

2011-04-15T11:08:00.001-07:00

I am not a good friend for waiting for so long. I have good friends that are worth the wait.

Good For Nothing

2011-03-31T22:26:00.000-07:00

I feel like I am good for nothing now. My parents restrict me so much that they might as well make all my decisions for me! When I was younger, like in first grade, I wanted to be a scientist. I was so fascinated how things worked. I like space, dinosaurs&fossils, mixing things, and I wanted to be able to find a cure for an uncurable disease. But then my parents said NO. Scientists do not make

I do not understand . . .

2011-03-20T23:14:00.000-07:00

Normally with these, I see a bunch of words pop up at once. I do not even have to search for it. Right now, I cannot see anything. I even searched for a good two minutes and the closest thing to a word is GOOK. GOOK. Is there nothing important in my life right now? Was I just sobbing for the safety of Jeffrey and my future for nothing? I do not understand . . .

Dream High

2011-03-20T21:54:00.000-07:00

I started this Korean drama called Dream High. Plot? "Six students at Girin Art High School work to achieve their dreams of becoming stars." Right now I am on my 30th hour without sleep. Within the last 24 hours, I finished Dream High. Not only was this drama inspiring, it has kept me weeping for the last half hour. Even after I finished it! This is so stupid. I do not even know why I am crying!

Birthday

2011-03-20T21:25:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I have blogged, huh? I guess I should start off with my birthday two weeks ago. It was swell. Brandon took me out for lunch, and then night time I spent my birthday with the family. My mum spent HOURS to make my favorite foods. There was bun tang, which is rice noodles in chicken broth, thinly sliced eggs, thinly sliced Vietnamese ham, and shredded chicken. Slicing the

Curious .

2011-02-24T19:10:00.000-08:00

I am curious on how slang started. Like all the curse words people say. Some people who curse, yeah, it sounds cool. Others, you do not really mind. And those unfortunate souls who curse like no other but they sound so ridiculous. The other day I tried experimenting. I replaced all these curse words with the actual meaning and boy do I sound funny ! When you hit your toe on the corner of your

Mmmm

2011-02-22T17:51:00.001-08:00

This is about 388 calories. Could be more or could be less. But most likely less . Anyway, this is so good and it is actually very filling! :D

Boyfriend .

2011-02-22T00:23:00.001-08:00

I want a boyfriend. Not because I want to be loved, have someone to hug, kiss, or have sex with. But because I want a boy that I can cook lunch for. That is it~

2011-02-21T01:00:00.001-08:00

I talked to Andy today. It makes me so sad. Where did my optimism from last week go? My horoscope was right. How scary!

2011-02-14T23:42:00.001-08:00

Happy birthday Daisey! (: <3

Tết

2011-02-08T22:50:00.000-08:00

Was good . Got a lot of money . Like, THE MOST I HAVE EVER GOTTEN ! But most people got more than me . Ish all good, I am satisfied ~ I must thank Mushey's mum for the li xi ! She gave me 20$ . The second highest I got from a person ! O: I wanted to wish a bunch of luck, health, and good fortune to her but I was scared that she would not understand my Viet . And then Trang, Mushey, and Dung

Venting

2011-02-07T16:50:00.000-08:00

Venting felt great . Today I felt great . So Imma tell you guys more of my pet peeves (: 1. Opinions I hate it when people unnecessarily say "Well that's my opinion so if you do not like it then unfollow/ go away/ stop talking to me" blah blah blah . Did I ask for your opinion ? No ! lol, just kidding, that was mean . But really, sometimes it is just annoying. And most opinions attack the

After plastic surgery

2011-01-10T17:23:00.001-08:00

I think I can SOOO be a car show model !! Anyway, flaunting like Rachael . ^o^Curious--how do you guys all know her cup size ? Stalker ?? You ask her ?? I find it weird how a lot of people know . Tell me please ???? lol (: This is only front view . From me side view, you can see my huge bloated stomach . IDK why but I am hungry 18/7 . After I make food I have no will to eat, but I eat it anyway

2011-01-07T03:58:00.001-08:00

Do I look different? If yes, is it because of the make-up? I think I look the same~

2011-01-07T03:37:00.003-08:00

No one likes to vent about a girl they hate and then hear, "No, she picks on you 'cause you are an easy target and you complain too much like right now"

2011-01-07T03:37:00.001-08:00

It is hard to critique my appearance and have someone say I have low self esteem or that I am wrong. Think about it like this, I am venting about myself.

Jeffrey was right

2011-01-04T00:53:00.000-08:00

I never really thought that I went through unhealthy diets or anything until today . . . WHEN I PURCHASED PEARL WHITE SLIMMING CAPSULES .The reviews said that it works wonders . Some chick went from a size 13 to a size 1 QUICK . Yeah, there are some side effects but right now, all I see is A QUICK WAY TO LOSE WEIGHT.I started 8 minute abs again too . Right now I am 45kg but I have a really big

Jealous

2010-12-26T01:16:00.000-08:00

I admit, I am jealous of Nathalie for having a better birthday party than me . Lesson learned . DO NOT HAVE A PARTY WITH PEOPLE YOU BARELY KNOW . Merry LATE Christmas everybody ! (: <3

Not the same . . .

2010-12-24T17:28:00.000-08:00

The holidays are not the same anymore .For the past few years, I was never able to spend either Thanksgiving or Christmas with my mum because she was always out of state doing charity work.This year, she was finally able to stay home for both holidays . But this year, my mum wanted to go all out for Christmas. We decorated our house inside out and we even got a real tree.But now, while my family

2010-12-24T04:25:00.005-08:00

I hate the 24th of December. Truly the saddest day of my life. I remember holding Daisey when she died and the dull eyes she had when the nurse took her away. Nathalie and I kept on saying, 'Hang in there, baby. We are almost at the hospital.' But we were a few minutes too late. My biggest regret? Putting friends before my family. I wish I could go back in time but what is done, is done. Now that

The thing I hate the most . . .

2010-12-19T20:53:00.000-08:00

The thing I hate the most about living so damned far away is that I do not feel important anymore .People stopped inviting me to random hang outs .Because I am never around . I can never get a ride anymore . And it is 'too troublesome' for me.People stopped visiting me .Because I live too far. Or because they hate where I live . . . at night . =_=People get lost on the way to my house or that

This is what's up

2010-12-19T01:41:00.000-08:00

So I have H. pylori . [Helicobacter pylori] It "is the bacteria responsible for most ulcers and many cases of stomach inflammation. The bacteria can weaken the protective coating of the stomach, allowing digestive juices to irritate the sensitive stomach lining. If you have an ulcer or gastritis, you may have some of the following symptoms:Abdominal painBloating and fullnessDyspepsia or

EXCITED

2010-12-05T23:39:00.001-08:00

I started talking to Calvin today because it has been MONTHS since we talked . It was great (':We might go to the Key Club dance together . I am excited . I WANNA GO OUT AND PARTY !I feel like a slut lately . lol . See ? O:Dress too short ! Shows too much shoulder ! . . . I like it . lol . I bought the third dress (:ANYWAYY . I asked Calvin if he can help me out with the dancing portion for my

Not feeling Well

2010-11-29T18:15:00.000-08:00

So I pulled an all nighter with Silvia and I was totally fine at school . Just a bit sleeping. I was indoors the whole day besides when I quickly switched classes, and I even had hot chocolate !But during Chinese class I fell asleep for an hour-- cool thing was that my teacher woke me up to finish up the passage they were reading . If you do not know what place the class was on, then you get

JUST LEAVE

2010-11-25T01:34:00.000-08:00

No one seems to want to know why I want to be an Idol in Korea . But I do not blame them because once they hear it, they will think that it is a bunch of BULL SHIT. Because something so simple should not make me make such a serious decision .Now I feel guilty though because I want to get away from everything . From family . From friends . Just EVERY SINGLE THING in my life . I will be stuck in

My Christmas List for Kat (:

2010-11-11T16:39:00.000-08:00

Sneaker wedges:http://cgi.ebay.com/Blad-Ankle-Wedges-Sneakers-Women-Shoes-US-SZ-4-5-8-/260681805774?pt=US_Women_s_Shoes&var=&hash=item826389f083Or if you can find a red one with a red heel, that would be great ! I saw one but now they do not sell it . ):Vivienne Westwood pearl necklace:http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=160494668684&ssPageName=STRK:MEWAX:ITPoncho/ Cape :http://

★ GAL-LOWEEN x NIGHT ★

2010-11-11T14:28:00.000-08:00

Sorry this post took so long ! >.>That day was really fun . (:I bleached half my head just for that day .We were supposed to hang out with Emy and Roxxi but Roxxi was modeling for the event so we hung out with Emy and Stephanie tagged along. Everyone was iffy about her hanging out with us but she turned out to be really nice !We went out to eat and Silvia and I shared a really yummy Katsu Curry

2010-10-29T00:51:00.001-07:00

LOL ! Phillip sat on a chair and it collapsed!

2010-10-25T01:31:00.001-07:00

I will post more about GALXOWEEN later (:

2010-10-20T12:46:00.003-07:00

You believe lies so you will eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

2010-10-20T12:46:00.001-07:00

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they are right.

2010-10-17T20:49:00.001-07:00

I wish I was as charismatic as him . . . I should really stop think about him. Lol Help me!

日本クラブ

2010-10-16T00:53:00.000-07:00

I cut off Chloe but IDK if she is an official board member, and I also cut off our adviser [Schweitzer]I am the only non-Japanese person in this picture . ;_;

AZN PRIDE

2010-09-21T22:08:00.000-07:00

Soo . . . at 3:20 is the guy some famous guy or is it really Andy Si ? xDI so a screenshot on his fb but I think this guy is wayyyy better looking than Andy . LOLNo offense . o.o

I THINK YOU ARE DUMB FOR SAYING I SOUND LIKE JANELLE ! D:< XD

2010-09-21T21:40:00.001-07:00

Ahahaha . I love you . <3 Would you not like to know . . .

It was good . . .

2010-09-20T22:55:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sDX1m0Y2VkgOkay, this is fake . I find out quite amuzing at how much it is so different and SUCKS .Anyway, Friday was good . I went to Elite to ask a few question . . .* TIFFY WALKS INTO ELITE ** Has trouble opening door so tries to slide through but door hits her ** The five people up front were just staring at her *Tiffy: Umm, hello . (: . . . Heh heh . . .And

2010-09-14T17:55:00.001-07:00

I like how Elaine, her friends, and Michelle are so excited about me auditioning for an entertainment. I myself am excited! :D

2010-09-11T20:22:00.001-07:00

I am turning black!

do you really have nobody at canyon? not even one person you hang with? you eat lunch by yourself and do things by youself and never talk?!?

2010-09-10T02:36:00.001-07:00

Naw mate . I have the whole freaking school by my side ! We are all like BFFLs . I even have tons of stalkers . I so wish I can eat alone at lunch but everyone wants to talk to me. I am on high demand . Ahahaha . I have relatives at the school . . . ? I am a freaking lone wolf yo ! I chill by myself during lunch . And err, yes, I do talk ? Ha ha Would you not like to know . . .

IDK why I thought of this

2010-09-08T22:40:00.000-07:00

But did Jeff Nelson and Kevin Kwan [ Quan ? ] graduate already ? Ha haI really miss Mrs. William's Biology class .I sat next to Jeff and Kevin through out the year [ first semester for Jeff ] and they were really funny .And then there were the class clowns . I only remember Zacharia . I think that was his real name . There was this one SHORT guy and a BIG guy . Class was really fun with them .

Am I that Asian ? lol

2010-09-08T21:00:00.000-07:00

So there is a new guy at my school from Taiwan and he just moved to America two months ago.I asked him how long he has been living in America and he said two months, then he asked, "How about you ?". . ."I was born here . . . "And then today Sherry [Sherry ? Sherrie?] asked me, "Tiffany, where were you born?"Me-"In Fountain Valley hospital."Schweitzer-"Oh, so you were born here."Sherry- "Really ?

Note to self: The Cabbage Diet

2010-09-08T20:28:00.000-07:00

I just started this . Not bad !Day One:Eat only fruit, all the fruit you want except banana.Drink unsweetened tea, black coffee, cranberry juice and water.Eat as much soup as you like.Day Two:All you want - fresh, raw or cooked vegetables of your choice.Stay away from dry beans, peas and sweet corn.Reward yourself with a big baked potato with butter for dinner.Eat as much soup as you like, but no

ALOHA GAL-IFORNIA !

2010-09-05T22:08:00.001-07:00

Aloha Gal-ifornia was on last Saturday . It was so much fun ! I regret being so shy at first . We felt so left out because we were the only ones dressed in Luau clothes which did not make sense since it was Hawaiian themed ! Silvia was so brave ! When I tried to be braved, I talked to Hiromi and she introduced me to Chiaki . [ Hiromi is in the jean jacket and Chiaki is in the blue shirt ]

First days of school

2010-09-05T21:11:00.000-07:00

Schedule:o1: Chemisty Honours - Takacso2: U. S. History - Najera03: Chinese II - Guoo4: A. P. Literature - Petteyo5: Algebra II - Aulicko6: French - LouisFirst day of school I got to class early so I sat outside on the bench and waited and text spammed Twitter . WOOT WOOT .Later the students got into the classroom and we went over the syllabus . Takacs is cool but it sometimes seems like he

I LAVI KATHERINE !

2010-08-22T22:33:00.000-07:00

She is the best . Go read it !http://katttbt.blogspot.com/2010/08/i-love-tiffany.htmlShe got me all teary eyed and emotional . ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ? ! O: I still lavi you . (:I really do not know how I am not sick of her . We were living with each for practically the whole summer !Last night she said my blogs were long so I decided to make my blogs short . BUT NOT THIS ONE . Although Katherine IS

Katherine hacked ;D

2010-08-22T14:01:00.000-07:00

I got bored . I LOVE TIFFANY QUYNH TIEN NGUYEN !You are lame , you don't even know how to spell it . MISS YOU SO MUCH COUSIN! <3I need to go shower now so . . . bye , love (:

2010-08-22T01:33:00.001-07:00

How come no one knows how to show that they care properly?

No one sees this

2010-08-21T20:39:00.000-07:00

I am weak . Truly weak . I let people plant things in my head . I let people control me . I let people's words bring me down .Just the other day, Chyna and I hung out . On our way to Starbucks, I told her how I think that I was anorexic . It was really hard for me to tell her . Yeah, I posted it up online . But for me to tell her for myself, I was very scared.Her response ?She hit or punched my

Inception was too hyped

2010-08-20T17:26:00.001-07:00

So today Peter drove Wei over so we can all spend the day together . :3But they freakin' came over around 9-10 ish in the morning ! O:

2010-08-19T23:04:00.001-07:00

I need to get rid of my dark circles ):

2010-08-19T22:09:00.001-07:00

My face is so big. I cry ):

I have a secret . . .

2010-08-15T22:48:00.001-07:00

I have a real problem .I think I might have anorexia nervosa .And for ignorant people, being anorexic does not mean that you are skinny .This is a real disorder and I do not want to tell someone directly because IDK . I do not want them to tell me to stop doing what I am doing .Anorexia nervosa is a disorder where you believe that you are fat . I do not need you guys telling me otherwise because

What is this feeling ?

2010-07-25T11:24:00.000-07:00

It feels like I am upset or guilty . Or both . I DEE KAYI am going to Anthony&&Martin's beach day thing and Kat is not going . I guess I should just 'let her be' and sleep in . But I feel bad for leaving her home . But I know she does not want to go . I mean c'mon, should is 'waking up early' and hanging out with MY friends . Not her friends, but mine . I wish they can all get along but no,

2010-07-23T15:43:00.001-07:00

I was asleep for seventeen hours. A new record! :D

Royal Pirates :D

2010-07-22T08:16:00.000-07:00

<----- Listen to them . THEY ARE FREAKIN' AMAZING ! Plus Moonchul is cute . AHAHA . But he reminds me of Takuya with flat hair . lol I was sad to hear that his brother died two years ago . If not, he could have graduated this year . ): I love their covers and music though . I wish the best for them and hope they get signed ! If not, I hope they continue making the best music ever ! :D [ much

2010-07-19T05:11:00.001-07:00

I wonder how many people read my blog. Lol. Am I that important, or are you trying to find that one reason to hate me? Ahaha (:

Nice to know you cared . . . MWUAHAHA

2010-07-16T22:27:00.000-07:00

Peter Luu IMed the funniest thing ever . . . Err, funniest thing I heard today . lolPETER: holy crapPETER: why did you change your blogspot background D:PETER: i'm so used to it being pink!PETER: this isn't bubbleyxtyrant anymore!PETER: this is likePETER: depressingripoutyourgutsxtyrantIt was nice talking to him . I have not talked to him in . . . minutes ? Days ? Months ? YEARS ? !Wait . . . I

A short post for Wei to read . (:

2010-07-16T08:00:00.000-07:00

Wei went to Asia . ):During summer, you normally forget about most people and friends until school starts again . Wei and I stopped texting 'good morning' and 'have a great day' to each other since school was over .But before Wei left for Asia, he texted me, "Bye puppy. Have fun at your party tomorrow.. Sorry i can't go.. Ill be reading your blog.. Be happy and show that beautiful smile of yours

June 30th

2010-07-16T07:28:00.000-07:00

I have not been able to blog lately so I am venting now . . . like weeks later . lolJune 30th was when I had a pool party at my house . BIG MISTAKE NEVER GOING TO DO IT AGAIN . It felt like it was my birthday party . . . Probably 15 people came or less . I thought that was a rather small crowd so we can all chill together . Nope, that is too difficult .Everyone is at my house and hungry as fuck .

DAYUUMMM

2010-07-16T07:07:00.001-07:00

So the chick is on the ground with a sexy pose with a huge as gun . I admit that she is not pretty, but she is on the good looking side . So, what kind of guy would not like to tap that ? LOLOkay, and now we can get her out of the way because I did not want to talk about her . (xI wanted to talk about the guy . . . of course . LOL . You could cover his face . It looks like he can be a chick . He

AX2010

2010-07-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

I am loving the GazettE sooo much right now . Can you tell ? :3Anyway . . . AX2010 was so fun ! I cosplayed and so many people asked for my picture . [ and for Katherine's too ! ] I felt like a celebrity . We found a couple of our pictures online .Please . . . NO HATING ON THE UMBRELLA ! I spent hours along with blood, sweat, and tears to make it ! I bought a lot of things . I really cannot wait

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI WEI ! (:

2010-07-12T23:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI !So since it is summer, I have been losing track on my days . So everyday for the past week, Katherine had to keep on reminding me that it was not July 12.And then last night at 10 p.m. I took a nap and woke up at 12 something . And I was all confused about what day it was, and then Katherine was like, "It is Wei's birthday!" (:Ha ha . Happy 16th ! :D

2010-06-25T01:15:00.001-07:00

RIP Lucky <3

2010-06-24T00:52:00.001-07:00

'Don't think of it as losing :o. You're just lending them :). Everything's gonna be alright tiff'lol. Ily Angelo <3Thanks for bringing perspective to my life.

2010-06-23T21:46:00.001-07:00

I always end up crying myself to sleep. No matter how great my summer is right now, I still have more tears than smile and laughter.

JUST BE FRIENDS

2010-06-18T03:46:00.000-07:00

I wanted to die after this song . Seriously . So sad ! ):I want to cosplay . I cannot wait until AX2010 ! I spent freakkin' over 200$ just on cosplay ! lolDamnnn .This song also reminds me when I was crying like a baby last week because of my 'depression' period . No, not PMS or whatever . But yeah. I got the sharpest parts of my nails, dug it into my skin [legs] and just kept on scratching

The problem ? Hmm

2010-06-18T03:28:00.000-07:00

So I heard this on the radio not too long ago and I laughed . I used to know the lyrics to this . . . what happened ? Ha haAnyway, I wanted to blog with pictures but my dad's computer is stupid and it is freezing everytime I try to put the pictures on my blog . So I will make this blog not so detailed .On Memorial day weekend, I went to San Jose . Instead of a six hour drive, IT WAS FREAKING NINE

2010-06-13T23:28:00.001-07:00

I realized that I do not trust people easily, I just have nothing to hide. I am just open to hear new opinions. (: